i give up.
countless times i have written these words. digesting them over and over and over again.
on an eternal quest.
how to fit into this box who i am.
what i stand for.
what i have to offer.
i give up.
i just can't.
it doesn't come.
what does come is an absolute sincerity.
a raw willingness to add value to the world.
to be in service.
i am, to be in service.
i need to make it to istanbul.
it is the next piece of the puzzle.
i will do my best. i promise.
to honor your trust.
to honor your willingness to help.
a random human being, who lives at the end of the world.
who writes these words, at the sound of the birds.
they bring aliveness.
they fire the light.
that is burning within.
and that wants to shine.
it has always been hard for me, to trust in what i have inside.
but i'm doing my best, my friend.
god only knows.
life is always watching.
thank you.
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here is a video where i speak from the heart about what this whole thing is about.
https://www.tiktok.com/@ankyerestu/video/7291457073034906886